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Looking Back, Moving Forward

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Up until a few years ago, I kept the habit of writing a year in review in my journal. It has helped me see where I’ve been and where I want to go in the new year.  This year has been full as are most years when I bother to look back at all we’ve done and where we’ve been. But the thought of looking back this year exhausts me. I feel a bit worn out like a handkerchief that has seen a few too many nose wipes. It becomes more and more apparent to me each day that if you do not take even little steps to reach your goals, your days will pass by and you wonder how you’ll ever have time to be doing that thing you really want to be doing.

Daily life continues here at the ranch. Cooking, feeding little ones, laundry, diapering, napping, walking in frozen pot holes. I still haven’t unpacked our bags from our trip to Long Beach for Christmas. Stephen continues to build shelves, benches, and cabinets for our house. A little each day–our house is coming together.

In the first few days after moving in, we unpacked our boxes of books. I don’t know what it is about books on a bookcase that make a home feel cozy, but despite the long hallway of boxes yet to be unpacked, I find great pleasure in just looking at the books in our bookcases. I finally found my copy of Madeleine L’Engle’s book Walking on Water: Reflections on Faith and Art. In the first few pages of the book she writes: “I sit on my favourite rock, looking over the brook, to take time away from busyness, time to be. I’ve long since stopped feeling guilty about taking being time; it’s something we all need for our spiritual health, and often we don’t take enough of it.” What I want most of all for 2015 is more “being time.” More time like the day I locked myself out of the house and sat on the dock looking out at our lake watching the stillness of the morning. I really need more of those moments. What do you need in 2015?

Before the new year begins, I wanted to share with you an online show “Every Day in 2014” my friend Jennifer Lanski is exhibiting on the website 2014in2015. Starting on January 1, 2015, you’ll be able to see her “Time/Temperature” drawing series everyday through December 31, 2015; one drawing per day for the entire year. You can find her other work at

Happy New Year! Let 2015 be the year you finally do what you’ve always wanted to do but never made time for.

Author: Jessica Adriance Cowan

I'm a wife, mama of a daughter and son, a lover of writing, and budding herbalist.

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